ninadaqueena

i've had this online journal for some years now... since '01 i believe. i think its time to switch it up. maybe i'll still keep this.. but i think i'm going to start a wordpress or blogger... maybe tumblr.. wonder which one is best? i'm having an amazing time in this city.. 916 city of trees. who woulda thought? the new blog will document some of my experiences.

peace and love livejournal.. we've had our ups and downs but you were always there. a bittersweet ending to a 8 year relationship.


-ninadaqueena aka MissChief916

its taking forever to get the FINAL flyer done because so many changes are taking place.. please forgive me for the delay of the final flyer..

PLEASE JOIN ME FOR MY 26th BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!
This is also a fundraiser for the Typhoon Relief in the Philippines where several Philippine citizens have died and lots more are left homeless. Among some of those victims are my own family. Please join me in celebrating my bday as well as raising money for this cause. We are holding a paper drive for a local Homeless Shelter Sacramento Loaves & Fishes, a wonderful organization in need of paper products (please see flyer).

JUST CONFIRMED~~~~> BAMBU of LOS ANGELES, CA is HEADLINING THIS EVENT!
He is currently being added to the new flyer.. Please come out, enjoy good music from some of the best emcees & DJ's in CALI.. celebrate my bday with me... and help the cause! please hit me up if you need more info... nrebultan@yahoo.com

*please see previous post for M1's article...

so my girl tish couldn't make the event last night... and she hit me up early in the morning on outlook and i responded...

From: Flores, Tisha
Sent: Thursday, September 24, 2009 8:25 AM
To: Rebultan, Nina R.
Subject: 9/23

So tell me how it went down yesterday. How was the turn out?


From: Rebultan, Nina R.
To: "Flores, Tisha"
Subject: RE: 9/23
Date: Thursday, September 24, 2009 9:09:00 AM

The turnout was great. We had over 70 in attendance... the music ran kinda long bit it was alright (great music). The lecture was amazing. He brought us through his experience of his 24 hours in GAZA and it felt like we were there with him. He spoke about some Palestinian rappers he connected with and how he visited the "ghetto". He also talked about the struggles as he did in the article he wrote. It was definitely an eye-opening experience to what is happening in the world we live in. I was totally inspired as was everyone in the audience. If there is a negative, there was one girl who was intoxicated and almost interrupted M1's lecture but that was quickly taken care of, so it wasn't that big of a deal.

The whole event in general was so awesome. The open mic portion came first because M1 came kinda late but it turned out perfect. There actually were no wack rappers on the mic!! We also had some very talented spoken word artists who performed pieces on relevant issues of the night as well as uncensored poems that got the crowd excited, haha! Everyone had a good time. I had an AMAZING time... even though I was trippin at first about the organization... I knew deep down inside everything would turn out fine, and it turned out BETTER than fine. It was nothing but love the whole night. My homie BONES dedicated a song for me and its an amazing song, I felt so much love... people were giving me props for bringing him there, when he came on his own! I met some amazing individuals and connected with them on that HIP HOP tip. An OG Congress Board Member gave me a big bear hug and said thanks for everything I do and told me that I was what they've needed for a long time. I actually got to talk to DLabrie and connect with him. Lots of people gave me props in the best way and their words touched my heart... I was humbled. There was so much great energy and positivity all around the WHOLE night. I didn't get home till almost 4am and I only got like 2 hrs sleep but it was SO worth it.

Wish you coulda gone girl. It really was magnificent...

to random people who just come across my blog. i've had this blog for YEARS. and its not your typical one.. its mainly for myself and perhaps those who know me well. i don't post shit for the masses so don't come here and expect to read about celebrity gossip, new album/single release articles, artist cover stories or all that jazz.. there are enough dope bloggers that cover that on the internet. this little live journal is a place for me to vent, share my thoughts, talk about my day/week, and just type away... (i sometimes have a tendency to ramble)... so lets ramble on...

its been non-stop for me this whole weekend.. if you've been following on twitter you know. instead of typing in detail let me just show you what my past couple days have been like:

WED: work all day, meeting right after, hilltop (local bar) w/ some congress folks
THURS: work all day, passion party @ night (helped out a friend consultant)
FRI: work all day, chilled w/ a new friend, dinner w/ old co-workers, ab rude/busdriver show @ bluelamp
SAT: hiphop congress BBQ, capitol garage benefit hiphop show
SUN: (TODAY) grind for the green solar panel hiphop show in the bay w/ dead prez & mistah fab

so.. time to get ready.. just thought i'd share my fabulous life with ya'll... details n pics (perhaps) to come.

This Too Shall Pass - India Arie

"This Too Shall Pass"
-India Arie

I achieved so much in life
But I’m an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine
But my emotions are bankrupt

My body is nice and strong
But my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
But when the night falls so does my tears

Sometimes the beatings so loud in my heart
That I can barely tell our voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
That I can barely hear what God says

Then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angel’s whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day one day will be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass

The one that loved me the most
Turned around and hurt me the worse
I’m doing my best to move on
But the pain just keeps singing me songs

My head and my heart are at war
Cause love ain't happening the way I wanted
Feel like I’m about to break down
Can’t hear the light at the end of the tunnel

So I pray for healing in my heart
To be put back together what is torn apart
And I pray for quiet in my head
That I can hear clearly what God says

Then I hear the whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the Angels whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass

All of sudden I realize
That it only hurts worse to fight it
So I embrace my shadow
And hold on to the morning light

This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
I hear the angels whisper
that trouble don't have to last always
I hear the angels whisper
Even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday.
I hear my angels whisper.
I hear my angels whisper.
This too shall pass.

JAMIE FOXX IN NOR CAL OCTOBER 10th!!!!!!!!! if you know me, you know that i'm a huge jamie foxx fan. he is a very talented, sexy, funny, fine brotha who i've grown up laughing at and admiring. his show goes on sale TOMORROW. omg. i think i might buy some tix... yup to celebrate my bday since its close by. who to bring.. who to bring....

i can sometimes get supersticious and i remember an old one that said if the palm of your hand is itchy money is coming your way. i got a little excited because my left palm itched. then i did what anyone would do. i googled "itchy palm" and got this:

"what is the myth behind itchy palms?"
If the palm of your right hand is itchy, then it foretells that money is coming to you, but don’t scratch it as that stops the money from coming! If it’s your left palm that is itchy, then scratch away, as that means that you'll soon be paying out money.

go figure.

i have a lot to talk about regarding hiphop congress... and my life... stay tuned.

first off.. i wish i were going to this event:


i'm not going to be able to go cuz i'll be on a plane to good ol los angeles. i was due for an outta town outing this month and my last few trips to so cal haven't been for good events. the girls are throwing a big party on saturday and IRIE FEST is on sunday.. but i'm still not sure if i'm going because i need a roll dawg!

i do get in friday night and i may be try to make this:

i mean.. i'm over clubin but my boy blue rose is performing and i would love to see him rock the mic.

there are a lot of things going on when i get back like a lot of congress business. but i am looking forward to our bbq on the 29th... flyer to come.

also... i think a sac hiphop congress cross country tour may be in the works... stay tuned!

i think kanye said that... well same here. i just don't have the time anymore to talk about everything thats been going on... its been quite eventful for me lately and i'm everso grateful. finally i'm proud to say that i live in sacramento. everyone knows how much i've hated it for the past couple years but i'm just about at peace with this city thanks to hiphop.

i went to seattle for the national conference and had an amazing time. i reconnected with an old friend, the homie darkside (csula chapter). i also met so many amazing individuals from all over the country. i felt a great sense of a mutual love n passion for music and the community. i learned that congress is also a family. speaking of family, i was able to visit mine in marysville for about half a day. i haven't seen them in 17 years! we spent our childhood together and reunited as adults and it was simply wonderful. my overall experience in seattle was a blessing and i'm taking everything positive from it to help me move forward in life.

last thursday was the verbal venom itunes release party. verbal venom is aman's group. aman and wes are the first cats from sac hhc that i connected with. aman is half of verbal venom, the other emcee is bentley. they are more on the commercial tip but they get the party poppin. i can respect their hustle. they work hard. i took tisha and crush out there.. megan, raquel and kari came through as well.. it was a good time.

friday evening was "hotpants" at level up on J & 25th. this event is put on by TAIS of Righteous Movement and is definitely a dope spot! that night was dope too! i wish sacramento had more gigs just like this. it was a de la soul vs. tribe called quest night so they played the two (and others) all night long. i was feelin it with all my body and soul. i met some great people that night too including tais & his girl, dj rock bottom (hiphop connoisseur) and mike b.. true hiphop heads that i hope to work with in the future. mike b and i chopped it up on the hiphop tip for a while as tisha and his friend chopped it up on the jazz tip... another amazing evening.

saturday started off rocky.. i had abdominal pains but they got better. i went to second saturday where i saw a couple local rap groups perform in front of united state. we ate at chicago fire and walked around. it was my first second saturday experience... i want congress to be involved with it somehow..

sunday was ROCK THE MFKN BELLS. let me tell you.. i haven't been to RTB since the very first ones where the LL crew headlined and a bunch of LA hiphop groups performed. that one had a crowd of about 300-500 people. the one i went to on sunday had 3 times as many performances and 20 times as many people in the crowd. it was a sea of hiphop heads enjoying the good live music. the clouds of herb smoke filled up the amphitheatre... tisha and i had lawn seats but the homie wes upgraded us to the next level and it was a phenomenal show. so much feeling and emotion... every show was off the hook- chali 2na, tech9, busta, bigboi, the roots, slick rick, reflection eternal, nas & damien marley.... plus all the acts on the paid dues stage.. supernat & krs were some badass hosts too. this is definitely going to be a yearly ritual.

monday the party don't stop! capitol roots put on a benefit show for the washington neighborhood center (where we had our hiphop awareness fest). this event was like a mini hiphop awareness fest. lots of graffiti artists, bboys, bgirls, djs, emcees and people of the community. despite the heat, the event was a great turnout. BUTTERSCOTCH was a surprise and everyone came to see KRS rock the mic. the event was all love and i had so much fun.

well... back to reality.. i'm back on that workout tip. i need it! from the 21-24 i'll be in los angeles visiting my LA folks, partying on saturday and attending IRIE FEST on sunday. then when i get back we gonna get ready for the BBQ on the 29th!!

i love the business of my life.

excuse that last entry.. so freakin cheezy!

back to normal now.. went to the last stop of the rock the bells tour last night. it was AMAZING! i tweeted the whole way through. i had a fantastic time.. who wouldn't with a lineup like this:




i got lots of work to do now.. when i upload my pics i'll post as well as dish the details.

i have a sudden need to creatively express this urge
its building up inside of me.. difficult to put into words
it would be absurd to ignore these feelings of confusion
because in my past it has always seemed to be just an illusion
my heart plays tricks on my mind
because i so desperately want to find
a wonderful man
with big hands and stands
at least six feet tall
wants to give his all
to me
as we
grow together to create something we've both been waiting for
cuz we both always knew we deserved more...
than the plethora of mediocre people in the dating world
a sea of silly boys and ignorant girls...
i can make him better, as he can me
but we're both complete before we even meet
we will compliment each other
not supplement each other
because i was born a whole, and that is how i will die
i want to live with him by my side
these are the confessions of a playgirl retired
all the games men boys play are so tired.
this is it... i think i'm ready for the real thing
maxwell said let love set me free to fly my pretty wings.
now i just wait and see and pray
put it in God's hands and it will be ok.

i haven't blogged in the past few months because so many things have happened in this short time that will impact me for the rest of my life. the biggest thing was losing my grandmother on july 3, 2009... exactly 3 months before i lost my aunt. anyone who really knows me knows how important my family is to me and how i would gladly give my life to spare theirs. everyone goes through this and it takes time to realize that it's a part of life and although their physical being is not with us, their presence is still felt. its difficult because you start to think of all the things you wanted to do. i am (almost) 26 years old, pinay-american and have never been to the philippines. it was always my dream to go back to the homeland with nanay (nanay means mother in tagalog, thats what we all called my grandmother). i wanted her to show me where she grew up, where she raised my dad, aunts n uncles, where she planted rice in the hot hot sun for hours on end, the house my family grew up in.. she told me stories when i was a kid, as a teenager and as an adult... which i will forever treasure. the purpose for her migration to the US was to help raise my sister and i. when my parents found out they were having me they knew they were gonna need nanay's help. nanay arrived in long beach with us a few days after i was born in 1983 and has been my rock ever since. she passed here in the states and her body was flown into iba, zambales.. where she was born. she is buried next to amang (my grandfather who passed before i was born).

Nay, maraming salamat sa lahat... mis na mis kita at palagi kitang mamahalin...

i miss you.... and my alphas!

so this past week i've been sick with myositis (inflamation of the muscles) and viral meningitis (viral infection). it all started wednesday evening when i was doing my zumba work out at the gym. i didn't have the usual energy that i have when i work out i felt lazy and my body was giving out, so i left my class like 20 minutes early and headed home. a headache started to form on my way home and right when i got in the door the headache got 20 times worse. it was only around 9pm and i took 2 advil and hit the sack. In the morning my headache wasn't gone and my body was very weak and aching. i called out to work and took dayquil which didn't do crap. my doctor wasn't available so i saw a STUPID physician's assistant who didn't know what the hell she was doing. well, before i start with her, lets talk about how STUPID and retarded the front desk girls were. they were exrememly rude and just not considerate of the patients at all. so, after waiting and arguing with my sick ass the PA finally calls me in and is not quite sure whats wrong with me. she tests for strep, which i told her i DIDN'T have, and of course it came back negative. she also thought it might be mono, which it wasn't. i did blood work which came back abnormal but they still didn't know what was wrong. i didn't make it to the next doctor appointment i went to urgent care friday night and the urgent care doctor sent me to emergency where my fever was at its worse at 103.7. at this point i was completely unable to walk, very short of breath, sweating my ass off but having chills, barely able to talk. it hurt so much i cried, but even that was hard to do. i was strong but in the back of my mind i really felt like this was the end... they got me into a room and hooked me up to their machines and hydrated me up w/ a couple liters of saline in my veins. they gave me a narcaotic called delerium that was HEAVEN. i stayed in the emergency from about 8pm to 3 in the morning. doctor prescribed me oxycontin that totally doped me up and made me constipated. it worked for saturday but sunday i got really sick again and was, again, rushed to emergency. this time they gave me morphine which wasn't as good as the delerium.... but at least it made me feel better and it helped with the pain when they performed a spinal tap. it was a little painful but it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. they finally determined it was viral meningitis and there is no treatment, i just had to wait it out and my body will eventually fight it off. monday and tuesday my mother nursed me back to health and i finally got to see my own doc on wednesday who told me to take it easy and even though i was feeling a little bit weak, it would be good to move around and me active to help the healing process. its friday now and i feel GREAT. 100% better and i'm so excited cuz i'm better in time for my miami trip next wednesday! YAY! i'm super juiced. thank you to everyone who prayed that i would get better... i love you!

it is such a bad habit but damn did i pull off some shit for my online business class! there was so much work and i practically ignored it for the first two months which put me behind but lots of ass-bustin in the last two months of the class sure did pay off! i actually got a B! i can't believe i pulled it off. its not a hard class, just lots of work... i was actually expecting a C, but the last minute 10-point extra credit assignment moved me on up to that 80%! thank you, thank you.

my communication class on the other hand.. i busted balls doing the work in that class. especially for the fucking group assignment! o received a B which i'm pretty furious about. i definitely expected an A. so of course, i'm fighting it and i best have my damn A!!!

it doesnt really matter since regardless, i'm going to sac state in the fall to finish my 30 units!! yeEeEeeeEE! i actually contemplated grad school today, but thats way ahead. i did a lil research on some schools AWAY from here, but i don't want to pay out of state tuition so... i'll probably end up in so cal again... or maybe the bay urea.

for now, lets just focus on these 30 units!




oh ya... 20 days till miami!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these past couple weeks have been HECTIC! i had my last day at ikea and the guys treated me to BJ's for my farewell... it was beautiful, i miss those guys already! i graduated from SCC which was amazing.. i can't believe i almost wasn't going to walk just cuz i didnt want to do the whole ceremonial thing.. i was able to go to night one of the hiphop awareness fest, which was pretty cool. i heard saturday and sunday were poppin! so sad i couldn't be there for that. i wasn't able to make it because i wasn in LA for the weekend which was so beautiful!

i went to a sorority formal and who woulda known that i was gonna be the oldest one there! it was nice to feel loved though. i FINALLY presented nicknames to my two little sisters and big bro (of the sorority). i was kind of nervous because I had written out my presentation THAT MORNING since prior to that i'd been so busy. i was glad that everything came together and i got lots of crowd participation. nickname presentations are kind of like "roasts", so whoever is being presented at the time sits in the hot seat while their big sis burns them! it was good and i had people talkin... my goal was accomplished. what was NOT cool though, was that one of my little sister's boyfriend got really upset and i was afraid he was going to break up with her... i guess i went a little too far with my exaggerations! it was crazy! i couldn't shut the crowd up!!! LMAO! good times...

after the formal we headed back to erica's where we played kings cup like old times and "i never" HAHA... i got super drunk and passed out quick. i missed out on some stuff while i was knocked out too!! but i guess it just wasn't meant to be. LOL... i had a great time and wasn't thinking about how i missed my drizzy that same night just about a mile away!

we all woke up hungover the next morning and headed to glendale for some brunch. the waiter that served us was at the formal the night before and we talked about the roasts n he told us how he found it "very interesting" lol. that was awesome. after that we headed to this beautiful outdoor shopping plaza called "Americana". Addy treated us to the movies and we saw "Dance Flick" which was pretty stupid but had some funny parts... why was i the loudest mfka there?! i couldn't stop laughing at some parts... its weird seeing a "ghetto" movie with a "bougie" crowd.


Americana at Glendale, taken on my lotus from the elevator

later that night i went to the Velvet Margarita in Hollywood with my sorority family. i LOVE that restaurant! the walls are velvet and all the art is mexican "dia de los muertos" art inspired. the ceiling is covered in sombreros and the food is delicious!




photos via yelp.com

i had a great weekend. monday i headed back and the boy was suppose to pick me up from the airport but got drunk the night before and overslept... even after i woke him up in the morning! he was texting me so much the night before about how he felt about me and him... spilled his feelings and poured out his gutts... if he cared that much he would've woken up in time to come and get me... i don't know what to do about him.

its weird that i have lots of free time now, yet my day is all filled up! after work today i need to run some errands, go to the gym then a birthday dinner, after the birthday dinner my friend wants to hang out. well, i'm just glad i'm keeping myself productive and occupied.

less than a month till i'm in miami bitches! can't wait!

oh ya.. i gotta new 'do! whatcha think?

i wish i coulda been there..